Have you ever felt like not enough, my friends? I know I have. In fact, more times than I care to admit I have felt like not enough. In fact, sometimes I find myself stumbling through life wondering if I am visible in the world. But then I am reminded that God used the unlikeliest of people to be world-changers.
“Hannah tasted the salty tears of infertility.
Elijah howled for God to take his life.
David asked his soul a thousand times why it was so downcast.
Next time you feel like not enough know that God sees the broken as the best and
God calls the wounded to be world-changers.”–Ann Voskamp
Yet even though Hannah, Elijah, and David were broken, God used them for God’s glory. They were indeed world changers. Many of the broken were world changers including Mary. This unlikely virgin woman gave birth to Jesus; the Messiah; the one who would come to turn the world upside down and would eventually be crucified on Calvary’s hill for our sins. What if these world-changers had quit?
I don’t always see myself as a world-changer, but I am indeed a broken individual. I am the daughter of a woman who lives daily with a mental illness. I am a single 37 year old alone waiting for her deepest desires to be met. I am a woman who was scarred by the words that were hurled at her as a child. And there are still days that I wonder if I am smart enough, pretty enough, etc. Through a mirror dimly, there are indeed days that I yearn to see myself as everyone else sees me with all the gifts God has bestowed upon me because most of the time all I can see are my flaws.
Like many other women in this world, I find myself standing in the midst of the wilderness clinging to my faith and hoping to find the light that will lead me out of the wilderness. My beloved author BFF (ok we aren’t really BFF’s but I would love to be!) Annie F. Down’s in her new book Looking for Lovely captured this so well when she wrote: “And that question, the question I can’t quit about the hate I can’t quit is the one I have been trying to answer ever since (P.24).”
My friends, I don’t know about you. But I think it can be so easy for us to get wrapped up in our own hate; our own insecurities; our own feeling like we are not enough. Yet God may and does call us out of our own brokenness to be world-changers. I think of the ways that I have been able to share my families struggles with a mental illness. And in sharing our story, I have connected with others and been able to grant them peace in knowing they are not on this journey alone. The truth is that God does indeed use God’s children with their scars, wounds, and brokenness to share God’s love and grace to be world-changers.
I’ll admit that in our every day lives, being a world-changer is not an easy task. But God uses all of us–with our own brokenness–sometimes with our visible scars–sometimes with our open and bleeding wounds–to be world-changers. So my friends, how might God or has God used you to be a world-changer? You never know how God might use you like God used Mary, Elijah, Hannah or the many other broken disciples of Christ to change this world!
I am linking up with my favorite lovely ladies–Holly and Testimony Tuesday, Kelly and the RaRa linkup, Jennifer and Tell His Story, Holley and Coffee for your Heart and Kristin and Three Word Wednesday.