Not much is happening these days but thought I would post since I havent posted in awhile. Just keeping busy with work. Thinking a lot about how to change things in my life. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my life! I have great friends, a job that I love (at least most of the time), and Im happy! However Im at that point in my life when I am so ready for a family. (I know you’ve heard this from me before but its where Im at) I love watching my friends with their children. I do enjoy hearing stories about what their children are up too etc. But like I stated a few posts ago, sometimes it does make me sad. I’m not sure how to explain it but it’s just how I feel sometimes. I guess part of me wonders when it will happen for me but then I also wonder “Am I doing everything I can to make it happen?” When Im sitting at home relaxing and watching tv, I wonder should I be somewhere where I might find Mr. Right. But then I realize it will happen when I least expect it. I did join an online dating site. Last summer I emailed and chatted with a gentleman and we met in person but he just wasnt the one for me! Sometimes I wonder if Im being too picky!!! But I know that isnt the case. But I do wonder “Why am I constantly thinking about this?” Thanks for letting me speak my mind about what Im thinking and feeling about these days!
That's what blogs are for.
Why can't you stop thinking about it? Because God has put a desire in your heart for a partner and a family. That's a good thing! That desire is a gift, and keeps you open to the world and possibilities for your future. I know from experience the challenges of watching others move into different life-phases (which you also desire) while your life seems to lag behind at single or, in my case, married-but-no-kids. It can be hard. But I think what you're doing is really good – celebrating what you have now, enjoying your friends and celebrating their life-changes, while being honest about what you seek for your own life. You're a good person, Tara, and a blessing to so many. Be of good courage!