Party of One

I am linking up for the Five Minute Friday. The FMF is hosted by Kate Motaung over at our Five Minute Friday website. Today’s word prompt is “one.” We would love to have you join us.

Just me
Party of one
Waiting for that special one.

As a single woman who desires deeply to be a wife and mom, the number one can be so complicated. One reminds me that I am not a couple. One reminds me that I need to care for me and no other humans at this time. I do have to care for Luna though.

Many of you know that I am beginning the process to do respite foster care. It’s answered prayer and a call that I feel is coming deeply from God. Yet fear often gets in the way. What will it be like to do it alone? Will I be able to do it alone? The truth is that if I trust one hundred and ten percent in God and my faith, I can do this.

I’m reminded of how one holy child came into the world to turn it upside down. One child born in one manger. This one whose cries pierced the darkness and awakened the world. The one who as he grew older wasn’t afraid to sit with tax collectors and sinners. The one who eventually gave his life for ours.

And because of this holy one, I know that I am capable as one of Gods many beloved children.

14 thoughts on “Party of One

  1. One of the most heartbreaking things about society & even church culture is that your relevance increases somehow when you are married or parenting- it’s not true, as you know.
    There is not one thing “wrong” or that you are “missing” in the waiting. The times and dates are established in the heavenlies. Your relevance is complete and True because the Lover of your soul says so. Praying in the peace, joy and purpose in the waiting.
    And respite care is a brilliant idea.

  2. i think that is great tara. if you want to be involved with children, that is one way to do it:) one of my daughter’s friends from college decided that she really wanted a child. when she wasn’t married by age 40 (i think it was), she adopted a daughter who a little older (not an infant. she is now in jr. high. she has done very well. i’m excited for you.

  3. Oh, Tara, thank you for sharing your heart! As another single, I can deeply relate to your words and desires. You’re not alone!
    I didn’t know you were thinking of foster care, but I second Andrew: You’d be perfect for it! Lots of wisdom and courage as you pursue this route!

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