I honestly love my life! I am at the point in my life when I, for the most part, am feeling content. However there are times that I really struggle with where I am as well. I hate to be such a whiner
but it is something that I pray for every day. I am so ready to settle down, have a family, etc. I know that it will happen in God’s timing and not mine but that is so much easier said than done. Just a few weeks ago, I was gathered with many of my high school classmates…many of whom I havent seen in 16 years. Many of them are married and have children. Some of them are engaged. And then there is me.
I have been on one of the well-known secure dating websites for awhile but nothing ever seems to come from that. There are days I wonder if its worth the monthly cost I pay. I have even had friends set me up. A college friend set me up with her brother. We talked a lot on the phone and decided to meet in person. I had a nice time with him and wondered where it might lead. But communication just stopped! I think we are too different and the fact that we were like two hours away played in.
I am at the point where if I don’t find my Mr. Right sooner rather than later. I honestly could see myself adopting at some point in my life.
It’s so hard to be a single woman….especially a single woman who works in a church. Like I said, I am content…for the most part…but I also pray for my prayers to be answered. I want God to bring that special guy into my life. I am not sure when or how that will happen. I also wonder why God brings certain people into my life as well. Why are they meant to be a part of my life? Just some thoughts rumbling around in my brain tonight!
In less than a month, I will be officiating at my first wedding and I am absolutely excited and honored to officiate this wedding. As I look at this young woman who I used to babysit and see her so happy, it makes my heart joyful! I am so happy for her and am hopeful that my friends and family will experience their joy and happiness throughout their lives too! I pray I find that type of love and joy someday too!
I appreciate your struggle as I too long for companionship even at a later life stage, yet still our heart's cry. And if that desire has been initiated as we know, it is intended for fulfilment.
I pray with and for you, for God's fulfilment of Plan and Purpose in it.
Every blessing & Joy for you and at the upcoming wedding !
God is with you…
Oh my gosh, Tara, your post SO reflects where I was when I was in my first call — late 1990s — hard to be a single woman who works in the church. I was 29 when Greg came (back) into my life (we had been friends in high school). About a year before that, I'd been in a relationship I thought was really going somewhere… and then it didn't. I was heartbroken, grief-stricken. Then, around 14 months later, there was Greg — meant to be!! God knew it all along — he just didn't share his awesome plans with me in advance! LOL Isn't that so often the way?!! I was 30 when we got married. I was afraid I was going to be "an old maid" before ever getting married, but as it turned out it was perfect because, by 30, I really KNEW myself — better by far than I did at 22 or 25 — and it really helped. So hang in there… Prayers and love from someone who truly can say she knows how you feel! 🙂 –Heidi