I am linking up for the Five Minute Friday. The FMF is hosted by Kate Motaung on her blog Heading Home. Today’s prompt is “Plan.” Write for five minutes; unedited.
As a little girl, my sister and I spent many hours dressing up our dolls in our own baby clothes; the very clothes that our mom used to dress us up in. There is the faded yellow dress; the very first dress my daddy bought me. We would take those dollies and play house for hours. And as we played house, it was the very plan I had for my life. I was going to find that special man, get married, and have a family of our own. But often life doesn’t end with that “happily ever after” that we always pictured and planned for ourselves.
It is Thursday night and I am sitting in my house alone. The television is on for noise and as my companion for the night. My arms are empty; silently waiting for that special little one to snuggle and care for. My plan; the plan I pictured as a little girl is not the plan that has happened for me.
I still pray that someday God will bring that special man into my life. I’ll still get married and I will still have a family. But this plan is not the plan God has had for my life. I still don’t know what God’s plan is for my life. Maybe it will happen the way I always pictured it. Or maybe I’ll become a mom through foster care or adoption. The truth though is that God indeed does have a plan for me…and God has a plan for you too!
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper and not to harm you; to give you a future with hope.”–Jeremiah 29:11